I don’t know what happened last night as I slept,
but I woke up this morning pretty much in the middle of a full swing existential, mid-life crisis type thing.
I’m paralysed by fear, and there is something huge sitting just behind me as I realise the enormity and complexity of living life.
I don’t really know what to do.
I want to ignore it and just carry on, finish my essays, and go out to forget it all. But… I’m not sure I can.
I have only just in the last half hour managed to summon the energy to fight the fear and get out of bed…